a moment of peace

I solemnly swear that the world hates me. Ok, I don't mean world as in the people but as in Fate, Destiny, Cosmic balance, Universe, whatever you guys call it. Want to know why? Because I never get a moment of peace. First, I get a call from my teacher on the 10th saying in a serious voice that I've failed Essgra. Then I spend HOURS trying to log in to get my results while trying to cope with my extreme nervousness. Finally got it and realised I did average as I only failed EssGra.

So here I was happy and peaceful till I found out that SISTIC put their training on the 14th. SERIOUSLY. It clashed with my supplementary revision lesson and I was afraid they would drop me. So I called my teacher to see if there were other dates and emailed SISTIC to check as well. Soon, that problem was resolved and all was calm. Although I was still troubled by other minor stuff which was actually partly due to overthinking on my part.

So the 14th came and I gave myself a major scare because I thought I had the wrong time. Then, I thought it was the supp paper immediately and was so nervous I went to the toilet to puke. Afterwards, I met my friends for lunch and went home. Blah dee blah blah blah and now, I'm nervous again.

My friend puts some cryptic message on Twitter that there's a test on Wednesday during the training for F1. Seriously! I mean, what kind of training is this? I just thought it would be a simple training. Learning to use the system, how to act as a service provider, so on and so forth. At least, that's what I was told. Now, some people are going to observe us on Wednesday and we have to ROLE PLAY stuff in front of them and there's a test??? Oh, and my friend says he needs to go shopping and now I'm like "Oh my god, please don't tell me we have to get the pants by tomorrow??"

To top it all off, I have a million and one things to buy and I have NO MONEY. I need to replace my iPhone, get 2 black pants/jeans, get a blazer and probably might need to buy a DSLR camera. Where am I going to get the money? Now I'm so nervous and troubled!!! When can I ever get peace and stop being nervous? It really really doesn't feel good at all. Words can't describe the emotions I feel when I think of all that is to come. ARGH!!!