painful but true

"I didn't want to do this. I didn't want to have to come to you for anything. Ever. So I thought if, I looked up your blood type, and it was the wrong one, then that would be it. Then I could just stop thinking about it. But I can't. Because you have his blood. And I know that he's not your dad. I know that he was never there for you. And I would never ask you to give him anything, he doesn't deserve a thing from you. He doesn't. But he's... he's gonna die, Meredith. And so, I'm asking you to give something to me. I'm asking... I'm asking you to give me my dad. Because as crappy as he was to you, he was wonderful to me.

He never missed a single dance recital. He was there at my 5th grade graduation, and what is that? That's not even real. I know he's not your dad. I know that. But somehow, you have his blood. And I don't. So I'm asking you... give me my dad."

This was what Lexie Grey said to Meredith Grey when she was pleading with her to donate her liver so their dad could live. Meredith was facing a tough decision because their dad never treated her like his daughter. He never fought hard enough for her and destroyed her life when he blamed her for her stepmom's death. In addition, he was the reason his liver was shot because he was once an alcoholic.

That scene of Grey's Anatomy was truly a heart wrenching scene and in my honest opinion, one of the best scenes so far in the show. In a short span of 2-3 minutes, so much was "said". So much was felt. Many of us could probably emphatise with Meredith and were probably proud of her decision. Princess of Darkness, dark and twisty Meredith all grown up. Finally whole and healed. Being a better person. Even if it was for her sister.

I wonder if I were faced with a similar dilemma, would I be as strong as her? Would I have the courage to rise above it all? I'm hoping that I won't have to make such a tough decision. Although I'm pretty sure I will. Not exactly the same scenario but still a tough choice. Somehow, I doubt that I'll be able to see past everything for the greater good. Somehow, I doubt I will have the courage to make the right decision. But then again, it's all in the distant future. Maybe I'll be different. Maybe I'll have changed. Hopefully.