Many times I have struggled to come up with material for my post. Not that anyone sees it anyway, so technically, I shouldn't care so much. Still, sometimes, I just have this urge to write something so I come here and my mind is blank. Seriously.
It's a couple of days into the holidays and thankfully, that empty feeling is slowly fading away. I hope. I mean, I don't feel that bad now so I reckon it's disappearing. Sometimes I still feel traces of it, maybe it has something to do with me being in the house all day long. I know I need to do MedSoc supplementary paper and I heard it's the week after this. I really really hope not because I haven't even started studying yet!
September is almost here. And with it, it brings new possiblities, new opportunities and new arrivals. Like new seasons of Grey's Anatomy and Gossip Girl. Hah! I'm starting my new job soon. I'm kind of psyched! It's going to be at F1 Grand Prix. Haha! So while my JC peeps are slogging away, I'm watching car races and earning money for it. It's going to be hard work still, I was warned it wasn't a walk in the park. Not that I enjoy the Grand Prix anyway, I just like to gloat. Yeah, I'm bad, nasty and mean.
So here I am, a mean, nasty and grouchy person sitting at the laptop, typing rubbish. Whatever. That's what a blog is for. If you don't spew rubbish here, where else can you do that? I can't wait for the World of Warcraft movie slated to release like God knows when (considering there are no actors/actresses cast yet) and World of Warcraft: Cataclysm coming out October next year. Woooo!!!
Monday, August 31, 2009
Saturday, August 29, 2009
i will follow you into the dark
Finally, the holidays are here. It was something that I was really looking forward to since I was successful in applying for a part-time job at the F1 Grand Prix. Somehow, when it finally came, I didn't seem to enjoy it as much as I thought I would have.
For the past 2 days, I felt really bored. Seriously. I initially dismissed it as lack of entertainment because my friend was supposed to pass me a stack of anime to watch and another was going to lend me her TV series but it turned out that I had to wait till next week. Since then, I have been watching videos on YouTube but I hate waiting for it to load. It seems to be getting slower and slower.
Then I realised that it was not just as simple as not having enough entertainment. I'm currently watching an anime and even though I have tons of episodes to watch, I still feel that same emptiness inside me. A void that I thought was due to the lack of shows. It may have something to do with doing badly for MedSoc but I highly doubt so.
I'm sort of afraid because I have no idea why I feel the way I do. Because of that, I can't do anything to make myself feel better. I don't know what to do and I don't know what caused this feeling of emptiness inside me. I'm just hoping the cause is something minor. Maybe I'm just making a mountain of a molehill. Or maybe it's due to the "many severe crappy issues". Whatever it is, I hope it goes away soon.
For the past 2 days, I felt really bored. Seriously. I initially dismissed it as lack of entertainment because my friend was supposed to pass me a stack of anime to watch and another was going to lend me her TV series but it turned out that I had to wait till next week. Since then, I have been watching videos on YouTube but I hate waiting for it to load. It seems to be getting slower and slower.
Then I realised that it was not just as simple as not having enough entertainment. I'm currently watching an anime and even though I have tons of episodes to watch, I still feel that same emptiness inside me. A void that I thought was due to the lack of shows. It may have something to do with doing badly for MedSoc but I highly doubt so.
I'm sort of afraid because I have no idea why I feel the way I do. Because of that, I can't do anything to make myself feel better. I don't know what to do and I don't know what caused this feeling of emptiness inside me. I'm just hoping the cause is something minor. Maybe I'm just making a mountain of a molehill. Or maybe it's due to the "many severe crappy issues". Whatever it is, I hope it goes away soon.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
dream a little dream of me......
We all remember the bedtime stories of our childhoods. The shoe fits Cinderella, the frog turns into a Prince, Sleeping Beauty is awakened with a kiss. Once upon a time and then they lived happily every after. Fairytales, the stuff of dreams. The problem is, fairytales don’t come true. It’s the other stories, the ones that begin with dark and stormy nights and end in the unspeakable. It’s the nightmares that always seem to become reality. The person who invented “Happily Ever After” should have his ass kicked, so hard.
I'm so tired and exhausted. Stressed. No matter how hard I try, it just doesn't seem to work. I can't focus and I become easily distracted. Maybe it might have something to do with the fact that tomorrow's my last paper, but whatever. I hate MedSoc. Period.
I have so many things on my mind. The father thing, the mother thing, the sister thing, the other sister thing. Oh, and the inferiority complex thing. I have way too many things. I bet even a Psych book can't analyse my things. I wish it was something easier like "severe abandonment issues" because mine is probably going to be "many severe crappy issues". Sometimes I close my eyes and wish that it would all go away. But no, reality still stays and comes back to bite you in the ass. I open my eyes and see the same crappy things I'm burdened with. Oh well, reality check much. MedSoc is still waiting for me and I only got 3 hours to completely memorise it. This sucks.
Once upon a time, happily ever after. The stories we tell are the stuff of dreams. Fairytales don’t come true. Reality is much stormier, much murkier, much scarier. Reality. It’s so much more interesting than living happily ever after.
I'm so tired and exhausted. Stressed. No matter how hard I try, it just doesn't seem to work. I can't focus and I become easily distracted. Maybe it might have something to do with the fact that tomorrow's my last paper, but whatever. I hate MedSoc. Period.
I have so many things on my mind. The father thing, the mother thing, the sister thing, the other sister thing. Oh, and the inferiority complex thing. I have way too many things. I bet even a Psych book can't analyse my things. I wish it was something easier like "severe abandonment issues" because mine is probably going to be "many severe crappy issues". Sometimes I close my eyes and wish that it would all go away. But no, reality still stays and comes back to bite you in the ass. I open my eyes and see the same crappy things I'm burdened with. Oh well, reality check much. MedSoc is still waiting for me and I only got 3 hours to completely memorise it. This sucks.
Once upon a time, happily ever after. The stories we tell are the stuff of dreams. Fairytales don’t come true. Reality is much stormier, much murkier, much scarier. Reality. It’s so much more interesting than living happily ever after.
Monday, August 17, 2009
random thoughts......
It's been 2 months since I've wrote a new post. Been really busy with work and trying to find material for this next post. I blame my lack of inspiration... where are the muses??? Anyway, lately, there have been many random thoughts in my head and I decided to use it since I can't think of anything.
Basically it's just random emo quotes/sentences that just 1. popped into my head and 2. heard from movies/shows.
"Sometimes, it all still feels like a mass of dots. But, more and more these days, I feel like we're all connected. And it's beautiful, and funny... and good."
"I looked across the room to steal a glance. Desperately hoping, wishing... that you'll turn back, even if it's just for a second. That one day, you'll notice me, someone who has been silently in love with you."
"I tried, but I failed. In the silence, the words I failed to convey to you have been carried away by the wind. Far... far... away."
"Slowly, I opened my eyes. I reached out and grabbed hold of a dream, my dream. As my hand closed upon it, it turned into ashes. Trickling slowly through my fingers like the sands of time. I realised how foolish I was. Trying to catch my dream... an eternal dream."
"A dream that cannot be achieved remains as it was. A dream, once achieved, becomes a success. Yet, why do we call it a dream if it can be achieved?"
"He walked away, but turned back at the last moment, hoping against hope that it could be saved. With a lingering look, he realised there was never going to be a happy ending. It was all just an illusion, a fool's paradise. Resigned to that fact, he resumed his sorrowful journey, determined to finish it."
Please note that though most of it were random thoughts, it wasn't inspired by any real life events, ESPECIALLY not that one about love.
Basically it's just random emo quotes/sentences that just 1. popped into my head and 2. heard from movies/shows.
"Sometimes, it all still feels like a mass of dots. But, more and more these days, I feel like we're all connected. And it's beautiful, and funny... and good."
"I looked across the room to steal a glance. Desperately hoping, wishing... that you'll turn back, even if it's just for a second. That one day, you'll notice me, someone who has been silently in love with you."
"I tried, but I failed. In the silence, the words I failed to convey to you have been carried away by the wind. Far... far... away."
"Slowly, I opened my eyes. I reached out and grabbed hold of a dream, my dream. As my hand closed upon it, it turned into ashes. Trickling slowly through my fingers like the sands of time. I realised how foolish I was. Trying to catch my dream... an eternal dream."
"A dream that cannot be achieved remains as it was. A dream, once achieved, becomes a success. Yet, why do we call it a dream if it can be achieved?"
"He walked away, but turned back at the last moment, hoping against hope that it could be saved. With a lingering look, he realised there was never going to be a happy ending. It was all just an illusion, a fool's paradise. Resigned to that fact, he resumed his sorrowful journey, determined to finish it."
Please note that though most of it were random thoughts, it wasn't inspired by any real life events, ESPECIALLY not that one about love.
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