(500) days of summer

Ok, seriously, if it were up to me, I would stay in Osaka and never come back. A holiday really takes your mind off things. Makes you forget your troubles. I went away for 1 week and I forgot I had lot of things to do. Mostly school work and my part time work. I hate school. Really.

Anyway, my trip was really fun. My most favourite part of the trip was to Nara. It's really beautiful there and there are DEERS! I'm not joking. They just walk around the whole place. Like literally. So you could be walking down the street and a deer would be just right beside you. That's really cool. And the deers are so beautiful and cute. I wanted to bring one home as a pet. Too bad my HDB flat can't fit one. The aquarium there is really good as well. I think it's better than Singapore's. (Bracing for hate mail, 3... 2... 1... inbox full.) It's built like a spiral so you go round and round all the way to the bottom. They get marine life from the Ring of Fire and classify them according to the regions. OH, and the Japanese are REALLY REALLY polite. I think they're so much more refined and cultured than Singaporeans. (Hate mail. Again.)

Ok, but that's not the main part of the post. I know, I'm weird. I rather blog about some random stuff than the trip which is what most people want to hear about. I was watching "(500) Days of Summer" on the plane during the trip back to Singapore and I really love it. I felt like I could relate to it in a lot of ways. Ok, obviously not the relationship part because I have no one but the fact that the male lead, Tom Hanson (Joseph Gordon-Levitt) believed in the things like Fate, Destiny and soul mates.

I'm that kind of person. I believe in fairy tales-ish things like that. He met someone... someone that he thought was the one. In the end, the poor bloke got his heart trampled on and he was so distraught and crestfallen. I particularly liked the end where he was telling her that he doesn't believe in the fate/destiny/soul mates thing anymore and she told him that actually, he was right. That Fate does exist. Because she was looking at a painting at a deli and this person comes up to ask her about it and he became her husband. And she said something like "What if I went to another place for lunch? What if I had reached 10 minutes later?" And that he was right about it, but just not about her. At the end of the show, he found that someone when he went for a job interview. It was really heartwarming and touching...

At first, I was thinking "Crap, this show is spoiling my beliefs." Which I won't blame them for because I can't deny it's a very simplistic and fantasy point of view. Reality is much harsher. I thought that was what they were trying to tell. But the twist at the end really got me by surprise and it was really good. I still hope that one day, my happily ever after will come. If anything, this show strengthens my beliefs. Yes, I'm a person that can be easily persuaded by fictatious shows and cartoons where the princess wakes up after her prince in shining armor kisses her and he takes her on his horse and sets off for the castle, striding into the sunset.

losing my mind

I don't know why now, of all times, for it to happen. I was just surfing Facebook and looking at some stuff. And suddenly, I feel sad. And depressed. And I also feel nervous, stressed, happy, blah dee blah blah blah. I'm like on this roller coaster ride of emotions. I'm such a silly, emotional person. Maybe it's Facebook. It does things to people.

I don't know if it's because of my "many crappy issues" or the fact that I'm a self-hating guy. Seriously. I was asked today if I really hate myself and I said "I'm a self-hating person". And if even I don't like myself, how can others like me? Right? Retarded.

I'm rambling. I have no idea why. I have so much thoughts in my head, and my heart's bursting with emotions right now. But I can't put any of those into words. Why? I have no idea. It seems these few days, my answer to everything is always "I have no idea". Why? No idea. See? Told you. Stupid crappy laptop keyboard is spoiling I think. Crap. Crap crap crap.

I feel like crying right now. If you shove me in front of a TV with Grey's Anatomy on now, I'll cry my eyes out. I swear. I have no idea why I feel this way. As I said, I'm a silly, emotional person. So in conclusion, I'm a silly, emotional, self-hating person with many many severe crappy issues. Don't be me. It sucks to be me. You'll probably die in your sleep; suffocated by your heavy emotional baggage. It's a wonder I'm still alive.

alright with me

I know I've never posted anything new up. Not like anyone reads my blog anyway. Anyway, besides the fact that I'm missing Grey's Anatomy and that I'm so freaking exhausted, nothing's different.

Oh, anyone who hasn't watched Idolatry should go watch it. I know it's a little late but there's always next year. Haha! Got a new song uploaded. It's "Alright With Me" by Kris Allen. It's really catchy and nice and awesome and fan-freaking-tastic and whatever... you get the point.

if only

Someone would tell me, "You say you're all dark and twisty. It's not a flaw. It's a strength. It makes you who you are."